Tag Archives: Peace

Sunday 11

It’s so easy to slip into obsessing about the faults of others, or my own faults, eager to find a solution there, but that place never heals. Blame is a circle and you have to move beyond it to find true healing. Every time you desperately seek a solution to your problem by placing blame, catch yourself, even if it takes one thousand times, until you have the discipline of a new way. Forgive yourself and others if it is peace you are looking for. Acknowledge your lack of power in these big mysteries that only life knows how to handle. Embrace the moment in-front of you to distract yourself from your mind and you will see that the distraction was your mind. As you let go of the need to place blame you will feel free and see that blame is a pointless trap that only exists because we use it. As you embrace the mysterious peace of the moment, you’ll see it always knows better and you’ll learn to trust it with other things too. Here’s a poem by Rumi that I love :

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
and rightdoing there is a field.
I’ll meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass
the world is too full to talk about.”

Thursday 25

Another day another try at standing up and taking off that heavy coat of self pity, allowing the sadness of loss, but choosing faith in the unknown over waiting for sympathy, or wishing for others help when I don’t let help in. I don’t know the answers and it takes practice not to go scrambling for them when you suddenly feel that deep loss of self. It’s the self that’s left that goes scrambling for what disappeared, and it takes a lot of a much bigger strength -or the belief in that much bigger strength even when you can’t feel it- to see the peace that never leaves. Over time there is less of me around, and more space to be filled up with that bigger strength. And more space for music, as i become the instrument. But for now, discipline and quiet faith. Life is long and full of days, hours and minutes, to fail with, to learn from and to be with.